I always find it helpful to contemplate the context of the Buddha’s own search and why he did his practice. The Buddha’s aspiration was very, very profound. The Buddha was a very successful being, socially and yet, in him there was a kind of questioning and it had to do with birth and death. He came from the consideration that old age, sickness, and death was his lot as well as everyone else’s lot and yet, in Indian culture there was this idea of ‘moksha’ or liberation from the round of birth and death as the context of his search. So, what’s the context of your search?